I lied. I am back. HAHAHAHAHAHA.
I was talking to someone about how I was like when I was younger. I used to be a rather queer kid, you see. (Hmmm, I still am :P )
I am the only child and I do not have any play mates at all. ): What kept me going was my imagination. :D
Bear in mind, I was only 5 at that time. Here goes.
I would often pretend I am a scientist. And I "invented" a suit that can withstand lava and enable me to enter volcanoes. Let me make it easier for you to visualise. Just imagine an astronaut suit with a super long wire attached to it.
Hold on, hold on. Let me finish first. (:
I had 2 "prototypes" of that suit. (Mind you, it's an imaginary suit, don't be too harsh on a child) The first is made of materials that will not disintegrate when in contact with lava. Sounds rather impossible huh? I realised that it was rather unrealistic too. I mean, I will die due to the heat! (Dear 5 year old me, you are so smart!) Therefore, 5 year old Carissa came up with a second idea. Volcano suit 2.0 was thus born. It is exactly the same though. Except that this time, there is a cooling system in the suit and there is a thick layer of air trapped in the suit to act as a layer of insulator. Yep. I was 5. Which 5 year old kid would think of using air as an insulator? Oh dear god, what was I thinking?
Just a short story that I have been wanting to share for a long time. :P

I will be back. After O's. My last paper is on 8 nov. Wait till then, just a month. (:

There will always be certain consequences.

Another month to O's. Time flies. It seemed just like yesterday when the banner indicated that we have 80+ days left.

 

This.

There are reasons why I keep most things to myself.

I can never satisfy the people around me. 

Apparently, doing well and not having any remarks about it makes you complacent. On the other hand, trying your best and still not producing results makes you lazy. 

And when you are moody, you have to keep everything to yourself and still put up a smile or else you will be an annoying bitch.

Why satisfy people? Why not do things your own way? 

It's called being considerate. If everyone were to do things their own way, earth will be a pretty miserable place, don't you think so? 

And my prelim results have to make things worse. Imagine failing a paper in your niche subject. 

The best part about today was actually her concern. 

It's not right, but it's okay.

No, don't act like everything is fine. I am still pissed with you. I just don't show it. I don't want to spoil your day, like how you spoilt mine, for about 2 weeks.

Thought it's all over, it won't be back. Seems like there will always be someone who will prove me wrong, time and time again. 

This.

Never question your own intelligence. We, as students in Singapore, are pretty amazing people.
We have to memorise at least 2-3 textbooks, tons of essays and formulas. 
Just a thought. 

My biggest rival is definitely myself. No doubt.