Frankly speaking,

I'm sick of all these crap.

Oh, and Aleen, if you're reading this, I guess I have something in common with you. You know your 11 pm thing? I guess I have it as well. Except for the fact that mine happens randomly. From night to early morning. I feel you.

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Aleen, ask me for the key and read this. Thanks. (:

Some things are not meant to be told.

Frankly speaking,

I'm very disappointed.

I've been having weird dreams and it's freaking me out. Take yesterday's dream for example.

I was raped by this guy fro my school. (I know, what the hell right? -.-) And worse still, I got pregnant. Months later, my stomach got bigger. My water bag burst and I have to rush to the hospital. I gave birth to a boy. BUT, it is a stillborn. ):

My second time having a dream about myself having a baby. What nonsense is this? -.- 

Weird dreams, go away please~ :/

A month.

It will never work out huh? My bad for expecting way too much from you. ^^

Movie marathon later on! 5 movies. My oh my. Today will be great day! :D

And it got me thinking,

Again. 

Before you read, please take note that I'll be ranting throughout this whole post. I'm a little pissed / emotional / whatever, fyi. Don't bother being so terasa and think that I'm referring to you. Get a life, (: 

I find guys who let their pride get in their way, a total turn-off. You are an excellent example. Saying that you have nothing to say and hence you said all those nonsense? Wow. Nice excuse dude. What a jerk. ^^

And you. There will not be any peace because of homophobic people like you. Bisexual / Asexual / Homosexual, whatever their orientation is, they are still human. They still have human rights. No hate bro. Dislike judgemental people like you. Try being in their shoes and see how hard life is for them. Some of them. Being judged by people like you. 

Yes. Been there, done that. -.-

Oh, and after that day, after you laughed at me for pouring my heart out, for breaking down in front of you, for thinking that you might be a great friend. I became so scared to open up. Thanks bro. It helped a lot. I got a lot stronger by the way. (:

Now. You. Congratulations. I know you've moved on. Me too. But do you have to delete everything? I know this sounds ridiculous... Argh. Come on. :/

Ever did something and memories just BOOM, start to flood your brain like nobody's business? Why did I even do that?! I swear the flashbacks spoilt my mood. ): 

I'm sorry for hurting you. Thanks for being super honest that day. You may not intend to let me know but still... I guess I made things worse huh? I'm really really sorry. 

I feel so messed up. Words can't describe how I feel right now. :/

I survived November!!! (:
Now, let me recall everything that happened during November. Ahh!
To end off October and start November, I attended the cluster camp at commonwealth. Their theme for the camp had something got to do with ninjas. If I'm not wrong. o.o
And then I attended H3ROES camp. It was an amazing experience. We practiced the 3Rs throughout the whole camp and I bring those habits with me up till today. Oh, and just to let you know, we used rainwater to brush our teeth and wash our utensils. :P Pathetic huh? And I'm still amazed by the 10Rs that lai hock has.
And then... TLLS/The legendary leaders summit!!! Amazing experience. My group was able to bond quickly and even skip the storming stage. We reached performing in such a short period of time!!! Concentration ftw. :D My group consists of different leaders. President of student council, band major of military band, EXCOs... It was a great camp. I have to leave the camp during the last night after the finale because of OBS. I reached home at 1 am and have to pack for OBS. I merely got 2 hours of sleep before I head to punggol jetty at 5.
OBS was a memorable camp. Each of us have to carry a bagpack which weigh 18 or 20 kg. Hahah. If I'm not wrong. Since they say it is suppose to be 1/3 of our weight. We set of on our land expedition on the 2nd day and absailed down to our campsite that very night. We moved out of that campsite and trekked around ubin for the whole of day 3. We settled down at another camp site and that very night was quite... Chaotic. Cook(my group) and Battuta(another group) combined and form a sea expedition team. My teammates chose me as one of the four sea ex leaders and we have to plan out the route. We did the whole night duty for our team so that our teammates can get enough sleep. Let's sum up the whole night. We thought our safety boat drift away and we sort of panicked. Sort of. *coughs* I fell down and my knee was bruised badly. After that, we found out that the red ants built a nest directly behind one of the girls' tent. And Battuta's bags were infested with ants. Red ants. -.- We did what we can and woke the rest up at 5 plus to settle this mess.
We launched our tri-yaks and started our sea ex at 8. I was the navigator and I have to lead all of them back to our very first campsite. And my tri-yak has two people while the rest have 3. The whole journey was tiring. But those epic moments that we have were really memorable and it made the whole expedition worthwhile. We kayaked around ubin. Proud of that :B
The 5 days spent at OBS = fulfilling and enriching. (:
I have to attend councillor camp and ncdcc camp right after OBS. My councillors were really sweet. :D Oh. And the birthday riot gang (Ridha, that includes you). :B
Ended my November with a chalet with 3e7. Human centipede 2... -.- Oh well, it made my stay interesting. :B
November was a super busy and hectic month for me. I guess I will have to spend my December wisely. O's next year and I have to pull up my socks. I don't want to drop amaths. :X
Thanks to those who made November an awesome month for me. :D
(Appreciate this post kay. Took me three days to type on mobile blogger :3)

Life's great recently. Thank god. :D

I have an awesome class. :3

Results are out. Now all thats left is progress report. Okay. So... I failed amaths. I'm not surprised. I didn't work hard enough. :/
Oh well. I'm still satisfied with my results. (:
Let's put it all aside. It's over already. :D

Pet peeves

1. Movie / TV series spoilers
   Don't you hate it when a friend of yours spoil the whole episode / movie for you? You will end up not enjoying the whole thing! Gosh. Keep your mouth shut will you? I don't need any sneak peeks nor reviews. Don't make me call you www.spoilitallforyou.com -.- 
2. Being selfish.
   Let me give you a scenario here.
   Let's call this person A. A doesn't know how to do a particular math question. He go around asking for help. He got help and score very well in math. People go up to him for help, he turned them down indirectly. Seriously?! -.- Do you see me turning people down when they need help? I believe everyone deserves to score well. Stop being so selfish. People will overtake you someday if you continue like that.
3. Idontknowwhattocallthis.
   Okay. Imagine a friend of yours asking you for advise. She listen to it, agrees that it will help her. And doesn't heed it. DUDE. Don't ask me in the first place then. I bother to look out for you. And yet you don't care, don't come back looking for me for help. -.-
4. Annoying people.
   Okay... Everyone does this. Just don't go overboard. :D
5. People who can't differentiate your and you're. ._.

Exam week

Great week so far. Caught up with some friends and 2 papers down! 

All the best to people who are taking your exams! :D

I took an online IQ quiz. Guess the range of my IQ. :P (I'm suitable for my dream job XD)

Pardon me, I'm just bored. ^^

The next 2 months will be super packed. No time for minecraft, PLL, anyone but me, HIMYM. I will forever be busy. I'm looking forward to next year. When I can really concentrate on studying instead of being so busy. 

"As if you're that busy. -.-" I heard that! Now, let me convince you with my schedule for the next two months. Oh, and just to let you know, it does not include camp planning for NCDCC/councillor camp and also excludes training for PDS competition. Oh, and also visits to TELC. Here you go~

So the empty spaces will be filled with camp planning, trainings and TELC visits. This concludes the typical life of Carissa. :D

Yeah right. I will be as tired as hell. And guess what? I won't be free on my birthday. I guess it will be a normal day that everyone will forget. Including myself. I will be super exhausted by then. :/

Never mind. Looking on the bright side, these are opportunities for me to... experience stuff? :B

Ever enjoyed your day and suddenly found out about something which brings your mood down and spoiled it all? 

I know I did. 

And I swear it sucks. 

I'm back to square one. 

Everything is happening at the wrong time. 

I need someone to talk to. Badly.

But I'm sure people will judge me and despise me again. 

This is life. What can you expect Carissa? 

 

JUST FOR DEBBIE CHEW :B

It's so hard to find photos of us. Tsk tsk. This bitch. :P
Hi darling! :P It's somebody's birthday tomorrow so I'm doing this for SOMEBODY. Sweet huh? :B
Happy birthday Debbie! Have a sweet 15th birthday celebration alright! Now now, go watch this video. It's just for you.
Happy birthday! Watch this :D
Heheheh, stay as awesome as always and I might consider treating you gongcha kay?
Now now, don't feel guilty ANYMORE. Hahahah. :B
Once again, happy birthday darling! :P I'm not good with expressing myself when it comes to wishing and thanking people. Pardon me for my short post alright! It's the thought that counts right? :P Have an awesome day ahead! ^^

Nightmare.

Sure, the song itself is nice. But no, I'm not talking about the song this time. I'm talking about the nightmare I had just now. ):
I took a nap and had this horrible nightmare. It might sound funny, but I swear it's freaking creepy. Don't laugh when you read it!
Don't...
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I dreamt that I was pregnant. Worse still, I didn't have sex and my vagina was dripping blood, non-stop. Oh, and my stomach is only bulging out a little. o.o My dad drove me to the hospital... On his motorcycle. I gave birth and they claim it was my second child.
What..?!
I don't know where my baby went and I was discharged straight after giving birth. Cool much?
And this guy with green skin gave my a handmade card and walk away. I open the card, everything is in malay and there was this condom attached to it.
And that was when I woke up. My parents were screaming because my dog went missing. So glad we found it. -___-
I just realised that my nightmare can actually make a good safe sex advertisement.
Gosh, so creepy. :/

As usual.

Memories flooding my mind. I can't help but think of you.
Remember those days when I was with her and I told you that I was messed up? You told me everything was alright. I didn't appreciate you then, treated you like a normal irritating guy.
You were the only guy that I told almost everything to. Liking milk, being with nougat, etc etc. Reading back our chat logs, how silly can I get? The perfect guy was talking to me about me being bi curious. And to think you even encouraged me on texting milk.
After some time, we drifted. I didn't have time to talk to you. And then on someone's birthday... We met again and finally, we get to talk. i was busy with stuff and I have to leave early. We didn't really get to chat and everyone was teasing us for some reasons. Apparently, they claimed that you have a crush on me or something.
You should have seen the smile on my face when I left. Hahah. Yeah, I can't believe I fell for you during that period of time. I was still with her then. And I told myself I was just embarrassed from all those teasing.
We started chatting again during July if I'm not wrong. You told me you want to talk to me every night. We did for a week or so if I'm not wrong, or perhaps just a few days. I told myself you are just a bestfriend of mine and I do not want to expect too much. Yes, that was during my "guys are jerks" period. And you were one of the few guys I trusted.
You told me you will attend YSLC for my sake and we can spend time at night since you don't have any friends attending as you are somewhat anti-social. And in the end... You can't attend because of that teacher. Gosh. My heart literally sank.
Memories huh? Damn. I want you back. I miss talking to you.
I didn't cherish you. And only realise my massive crush for you after we drifted apart. How silly.
Can we get back to being good friends again? If only you are reading this. Impossible. Hahahah.

Addicted to pretty little liars >:D

Nowhere is safe anymore.

Facebook, Blogger, Twitter and even tumblr. 

Oh, I may not be a physics student, but I find this cool. Go check it out, to lazy to embed it. :X
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=yVkdfJ9PkRQ&feature=player_embedded#at=73

I believe August will be a better month. :D
July was great despite the obstacles and challenges faced. I've learnt so much in such a short period of time.
#1. Close friends can become strangers in just an instant. People change, feelings fade. I miss those times. I can only cherish all those memories and move on. No point crying over split milk. I have no idea what happen between us which caused such drastic changes. At least I know we were once close and we had fun. You taught me a lot and big thank you for that. (:
#2. Want to know who is always there for you? Screw your life upside down and make mistakes. I have awesome friends and mentors. :D
#3. Haters are there to bring you down. You cannot satisfy everybody. Do not break down in front of them. Be strong, smile and always say that you are alright. That is the best armor on earth against haters.
#4. Constantly remind yourself, everything will be alright. Not everything will go your way. Go left if nothing goes right. If life gives you lemons, make lemonade out of it, go to a beach, get a tan and enjoy your drink yo. :D
#5. Some people just can't keep their mouths shut. Let them be. You know yourself. God knows what happen. You can't keep their mouths shut. Let them train for their oral exam. See, you've done a good deed there! ^^
Hi August. I'm out to conquer you. Here goes. :D

I've been a emotional bitch since yesterday because of mood swings. I should get a life.
Valuable lesson learnt yesterday. Want to know who is always by your side? Screw up everything and see who is still there for you.
Got shocking results.
So to those spreading the wrong story, please, get the facts right first.
You want to know what happen? At least ask me personally. I didn't even pour water. -.-
O'well. I don't really care now. :D

"Sometimes things fall apart so that better things can fall together" 

I hope tomorrow will be better. Monday blues, please go away. Don't affect the rest of my week.
I'm sleep deprived/upset/confused/feeling so... asdfghjkl. I'm trying my best to stay super positive. But things just don't turn out right.
Change is inevitable. It is a part of human nature, right?
Think before you act.
I don't feel good. Argh.
Please tell me tomorrow will be way better than today.

Happy youth day! :D

Happy holidays! 

Cherish it, because it isn't a holiday for me. I have to help out at ASEAN school games later and I have camp planning at night.

A proper update soon alright? :D

*P.S. Did I mention that my dear Excos and I are conducting our school's first ever SLC? :D

HAI. It's 4 in the morning on a school day. I can't seem to sleep and homework sucks. I wonder who invented homework. It's the end of the holidays and I guess it was really hectic and epic. I can't believe I was so busy.
Yes. I'm forever busy. Next up, I have a seminar to hold. Thank god for all these opportunities. I'm sure some of them will not want to help out. Too bad. You don't benefit from it then. (:  I really look forward to next year when I can pass out and just concentrate on my O's. I was so busy during the first semester of the year. And I'm going to be even busier. Oh well, like I always say, with great duties comes great responsibilities. Endure Carissa, you are on your way to success. :D
I don't think I will be sleeping. It's 4:07 a.m. right now and I have councillors' meeting at 6:30. Boohoo. ):
Have a great week ahead! :D
By the way, I wish I have wavy hair. My hair looks so... Fake. Trololololol.

Omg, that was the only day my hair turn wavy. :D

Back from council camp. So glad it was a success despite all those minor disputes. :D

I'm now waiting for photos to be up. So for now.. 

Thanks to all the excos who made it a success. I'm looking forward to the year end camp :D

I'm back from Langkawi and Penang! :D (4 days ago) And I came back with an amazing gift from Malaysia. Guess what...? 

Flu. 

Nice huh? Hahahah. There's something else that the trip gave me. Memories. (: 

It was a really nice trip. Really. 2 major incidents happened though. Ask me personally! I'm too lazy to elaborate too much here. :D 

 This is the president of their Student council! And I have no idea this picture was taken ._.

:D

NYAN CAT IS AWESOME. REALLY. :D
It's stupidly cute. Hahahahah. Really, I even downloaded the app. Imagine If I'm a nyan cat...

OMG HAHAHAHAH XD
Sorry. I'm bored. And my ppts are driving me nuts! D:

I've been staying up for the past few weeks, preparing for councillor camp. I need to come up with 4 ppts and I'm still at lecture 1 on leadership.
I did so much research and read up so much on leadership. I even thought about my own life, and yet...
I'm not done with even 1 slide! D:
I have to blame myself for not having an end in mind. I can't find any source of inspiration at all!

See! I'm stressed to the extent of going bald! Terrible!
And I might have to bring my laptop over to Langkawi during the immersion trip. If not I will not be able to finish everything just in time for the camp.
I don't have time for anything else other than all these lecture slides. No time for breaks.
Anyways, just going to share something I find very inspirational..

Don’t hope. Decide.

Just 3 words. Peel the layers off yourself. :D

I'm back from the 8th youth leaders camp. I have to say, it's more of a luxury camp then a training camp. No kidding. The apartment is awesome, the food is awesome and the activities are awesome.
You see the photo up there? ^ Those are my super awesome apartment mates. :D
When we first reach Ngee Ann, we went to TheLoft@94 to check out the apartment that we will be staying in. It was a nice chalet style apartment that is fully air-conditioned.
The food, oh gosh. Day 1 = Puff and pie from polar puffs and cakes, botak jones, food court. Day 2 = Mac, nasi lemak, food from breeks cafe. Day 3 = Prata, pizza. Hahahaha, shiok. (Y) Activities? Outdoor experiential learning - parafan, abseiling, rock wall, etc. Workshops conducted by high achievers and dialogue in the dark. Dialogue in the dark is not just about talking in the dark, it's more than that.
It is actually a museum and we went for a tour in it. What's so special about it? It's in the dark. And we won't be able to see anything. We were split into groups, given a blind man's cane and experienced what it is like to be visually impaired. Of course, being led by a blind guide. We cross roads, came to this fruit stall and went to this "cafe". We bought drinks from a blind "cafe" owner and all of us had a chatting session. All in the dark.
I myself had difficulties walking and drinking in the dark. Oh, by dark, I really mean not being able to see at all. Imagine that. Our blind guide told us that he lost his sight when he was 6. He woke up and could not see anything. He did not want to be sent to the school for the visually impaired people. Instead, he went to a normal primary and secondary school. And got a diploma from a polytechnic. Amazing isn't it? It was a really meaningful experience and it taught me how to appreciate what I have.
Today morning, we had our final workshop. The consultant from the group of coaches from high achievers approached me and ask me to join them as a coach. He said they were looking for people like me and he hope that I will join them. My initial expression --> O.O He gave me his name card and told me to consider this offer. I'm still shocked. Hahahah. :B
YLC was one of the most enjoyable camps ever. I was able to learn so much from it. I'm looking forward to the RED camp. :D
P.S. I have a super sexy voice right now.
Vikings \m/ ^^

I blogged at marina barrage. But I didn't see that post. I think it wasn't posted. Never mind.
I was saying blogging about kites. Yes. Kites.
They took me granted for that day. I was already upset about the incident when they doubt my abilities. That really sets me thinking.
We reached Marina Barrage. All of us looked up. There were lots of kites. Their reactions? "Wow! This is beautiful!" And they laughed at the kites that were stuck in the trees.
And that was when I realized that actually humans are similar to kites.
For example, if I were to do something well, I will be like a kite that is flying up high in the sky. People around will say that my achievement is great and they will look up to me. They will praise me. Just like how they exclaim that the kites flying up high are beautiful.
Then again, who will notice the beauty of the kites that are stuck in the trees? Hardly anyone. No one will even bother trying to get it down. Who will make an effort to get the kites down? They can just buy a new one.
Similarly, we human beings are like that.  When we are stuck, and we are tied down by some difficulties, no one will be there for you. People will claim they will, but to be frank, they will laugh at you and mock you. No one will really help you. No one will even look at how good you are. And you will be as good as a kite. Stuck in a tree.
Then again, I thought about it for awhile. And I realised something.
What about me...?
Where can I classify myself?
And that was when Shaun's kite was one of the highest. It soon got tangled by other strings, but it managed to fly up high again.
So that's where I classify myself.
I achieved something. Great results and a great position in the student council; the president.
People look up to me. Tell me how well I've done.
But when I'm stuck, and was entangled by my problems, no one was there. I have to fight for myself. When I crash, people will start laughing at me. They mock me. Doubt that I will get to that highest point of life again.
I prove them wrong, show them that I can do it. I did my best. Did better than before.
Just like that kite.
But then, people will get bored of it.
They will not care anymore. They need a new source of entertainment.
I'm sure the kite feels lonely, being up there, higher than other kites, all alone.
That's how I feel. I see.
It really reflects on human beings. Really.
A really great lesson learnt.

Trust no man, fear no bitch.

I feel that people take me for granted. Seriously.

It feels so horrible. Knowing the fact that no one can be trusted. History repeats itself. 

I was enjoying my day. Chatting away and doing my notes, eating dinner and talking about random stuff.

And your call, it changed my life. Really, ain't exaggerating. 

It made me realised that I really do have a massive crush on him. And then you have to spoil my day. Fucking bastard. To think you understand how I feel, and you are my closest guy friend. 

Or should I say were? Hah. Do you know how long it took for me to trust people again, after the first library incident? 

And then she told me about you. And I was so shocked. Fuck you bitch. And you too, fucking gay. 

Seriously. You people take me for granted. Did I ever play that horrible prank on you? NO. Bastard.

And to make things worse, hah, parents. 

Just because of a newspaper? What the heck? It isn't about money. It's just bloody 90 cents. I want love. Not money. I want trust, not money. In fact, I rather be poor, than to be this unhappy.

You saw me crying. And you have to scold me to make things worse. 

None of you care. Just curious, right? I'm so done with everything. 

Truth is, no one will care. They claim they do, but they are just curious. They just want to know what had happened. And after that, they will despise you for who you are.
Meaningful lesson learnt today.
Shouldn't open up to people again huh? Smart choice. Be independent.
:D

Problems are never ending. I'm not wishing for the best nor am I going to wish for the worse to come. Nah, wishes, 11:11(s), they exist just to give false hope. Not going to wish for anything anymore. Learning to be independent = best solution ever.
Haters got to hate. I have no idea what got into both of you, but I've decided I should give up on both of you. Not worth my time, not worth my tears. Best friend, close friend? Sorry, this is all bullshit. (:
I guess this few months were really emotional and problematic. But I guess that's how life is. Not everyone is going to appreciate all the effort you've put in. Not everything will be smooth sailing and most people will not be there for you even when they claim they will. And I came to overcome the fear of allowing my close ones to put on cement shoes. Everyone is going to find cash in their chips someday, and we just have to let go when the time comes.
All I want to do now is to concentrate on my studies and just try my best to fight for my rights to stay in this school . I'm sure it's possible.
P.S. Do you know, those who smile and laugh the most are the ones who faced or went through the most emotional pain?

CIVIC DISTRICT TOUR WAS THE MOST TORTUROUS TRIP OF MY LIFE. -.-
I swear. The past week isn't a good one, every single day I spent in school sucks. And faking smiles have never been any harder before.
Let me tell a short story..
There is this group of people. They name themselves "problems". They have this ally called "stress". They have a common interest; to ruin people's life. They make people's life miserable and they seem to have everything planned out nicely. Take for example, what happened to Japan. "Problems" caused an earthquake there. Japan saw this coming and have backup lights and electricity ready when the earthquake broke the main source of power. However, "problems" knew that Japan was ready, and launch a tsunami, causing panic. It even cause the nuclear plant to leak and hence, "stress" came in to create havoc.
Why am I saying all these crap?
You got me. They approached me.
You must be thinking, bullshit. You are comparing your life to the people in Japan? Come on, you got a way better life than them!
So please, allow me to finish what I'm trying to convey here.
Seems like "problems" and "stress" tried a brand new approach on me. "problems" started out first, but their approach was slow and small. "stress" came in as planned. He gave me a truckload of things to do and settle. "problems" strike again. How? In all aspects. Their plan took quite some time. But the outcome was very satisfying for them.
You see, the thing is, some people are able to overcome both of them whenever they strike.
But I can't.
They had everything planned out nicely. And they had fun bullying me. They were so happy to see me cry. Everything went better than planned.
Dramatic, it may seem. Believe it a not, but it's a true story.
Think I'm exaggerating? Wait till you have the fear of losing your parents anytime.
Why can't they tell me when I was a little younger? I regret everything. I didn't appreciate the fact that I had a happy family.
The next thing I know, I will really be off to some other country, under the care of a guardian.
My closest aunt might just pass away anytime. And that made things worse.
It's not that I don't want to tell my friends anything. But it's hard, to get it all out of my mouth.
Dear friends, do you guys understand how I feel now?

I FEAR GOING TO SCHOOL.

This week is killing me. In fact since the starting of the year. Shit 2011. Seriously.
I don't know whether it's stress or am I just too upset. I lose my appetite recently. I'm hungry but I have to force myself to eat. And if I can't. I will just skip meals. And this caused me to put on a lot of weight. Gahh. Yea. I'm this weird. I have to eat to prevent myself from gaining weight. -____-
The fact that yesterday was speech day sucked. Lots of photos will be up on fb. Photos of all of you marching, having fun and in the process, wipe me out of your memories. Tried putting that at the back of my head yet I can't. The fact that 6 of you are my closest friends hurts even more. Putting words in my mouth, removing that particular thing and replacing me with some other people, even juniors.
Yesterday, I wanted to look for you guys. I walk towards all of you, and I saw all of you having so much fun. I can't help but turn back. I felt like breaking down at that point of time. But I have to go up to the rest of the teachers and councillors with a smile. Fml much?
The whole group of you walk pass me like nothing had happened. Even when I approach you and talk to you. You gave me that freaking awkward smile. All you said was "What? Oh. Okay. Hi. Yea, I know, Our cca improved a lot."
I don't want to go to school anymore. "You should have transferred to Cedar. Even though you will be in the last class there." The "best" advice ever. Thanks a lot.
And all these are happening at the wrong time. At the time when I have so much to do. When I need the most support.
There's still so much more I have to keep to myself. And I'm going crazy.

I found my sec 1 Ncdcc cca photo. Best cadet last time. Now what? ):
Yeah. My heart still ache a lot about it. I place so much effort, so much pride on my cca. Life is never fair huh? O'well. Bye SNCO. ): My dream of geting WO as well.
OKAY SHUT UP CARISSA. Who cares? Grrr.

Can't find this, can't find this, can't find this! *cross fingers* Heheheh. Aiya. Only if you put in effort and bother to. :B

Great. Have to spend another day doing homework. Holidays are not holidays at all. So much to do. Homework, planning... Oh yeah. Planning of councillors' investiture. I dreamt of it last night. -.- Focus too much on it I guess. OHHH. AND I HAVE TO ATTEND MONDAY'S MEETING!!! Won't get extra sleep. :/
O'well. With heavy roles and duties comes heavy responsibilities. At least I'm lucky to get this opportunity and experience. :D
Pffft. Okay. I need to start work already. Gosh. I want to get it over and done with. x.x