New year, new beginning? :D

Hey there! (:

2011 passed super fast. It was due to my busy schedule I guess.

It was a year that thought me so much. And frankly speaking, it was actually an awful year for me. 

Yes, I had my share of laughter. What I meant was that it was actually the worst year out of my 3 years in secondary school so far. 

I learnt to accept the situation my family is currently in. All these drama. Thank god it didn't affect my studies. 

I was so busy, I neglected my friends. I lose my best friend and my close friends. I caught up with them. But the distance is still there. I have to learn to deal with that. Wrong moves and decisions backfire and I broke down a lot. But it's all part of life. What's important is to learn how to stand up again after every fall. And I'm proud to say I did. (:

Another important lesson I've learnt in 2011, there are things which are beyond my control and I have to respect the authorities' decisions. 

Being a leader isn't easy, and frankly speaking, I can't wait to step down and really focus on my studies. But it also gave me opportunities to make new friends and learn new things. :D 

H3ROES, TLLS, OBS, councillor training camp,YLC, YLSC, annual councillor camp, NCDCC camp and cohort leadership camp. Yea. That's a lot of camps for a year huh? :B

Not forgetting Langkawi trip. (:

Okay okay, I will add some photos to make this post more interesting. And afterall, a picture speaks a thousand words.

All these are just random photos. ^^

So, how did I end 2011? With my lovely friends!! <3

We went ice skating and then to Clarke Quay for the countdown. 

A tradition for people to kiss on New year? Nah, we had a group hug instead. :B

Oh, I want to show you guys something. :B

When it's 2011, you are excited for the new year, the countdown! You will look like this.... 

But you wait and wait, and it's finally 2012! You will look like.....
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Like this!

Tired and exhausted from all those waiting and partying! HAHAHAHAH. I FIND THIS THEORY FROM NASUHA HILARIOUS. XD

I went home in a good mood. 

And someone have to spoil my new year. Happy new year. Thanks for breaking my heart uh. (:

It's okay. :B I start off today morning, I mean afternoon, on a good note. :D I had the best dream ever!!! :D 

Sadly, it is only just a dream. ):

Now, time for my new year's resolutions!!! ^^


#1, Be a better person! :D
This is the most common, yet the hardest resolution. Have to have the courage to face setbacks and criticism before I can change for the better. "Better person" is rather general. By person, I mean a better friend, daughter, classmate, schoolmate, leader... You name it. :D


#2, Get rid of my lingo!
Mdm Geja told me I have this lingo when I do public speaking. Okay... I don't mean get rid. I just want to learn to control it so that I can use it at the right time. Why? Because my "lingo" is apparently somewhat informal. O:

#3, Lose weight.
Duhh, girls like me would definitely have this on their lists. :B


#4, Study hard. 
Yes. I want to get 9 for my O's. Crazy? Nah. I call this ambitious. (: 


#5, Be myself.
Society is so judgemental nowadays. I want to be myself. Who cares about what others think of me, right? No. I'm not there yet. If not I won't have to lie and encrypt some stuff on my blog. :/


That's it. I guess. 2011 has been a meaningful year. I will make 2012 way better. (: Happy new year! :D

Frankly speaking,

I'm sick of all these crap.

Oh, and Aleen, if you're reading this, I guess I have something in common with you. You know your 11 pm thing? I guess I have it as well. Except for the fact that mine happens randomly. From night to early morning. I feel you.

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Aleen, ask me for the key and read this. Thanks. (:

Some things are not meant to be told.

Frankly speaking,

I'm very disappointed.

I've been having weird dreams and it's freaking me out. Take yesterday's dream for example.

I was raped by this guy fro my school. (I know, what the hell right? -.-) And worse still, I got pregnant. Months later, my stomach got bigger. My water bag burst and I have to rush to the hospital. I gave birth to a boy. BUT, it is a stillborn. ):

My second time having a dream about myself having a baby. What nonsense is this? -.- 

Weird dreams, go away please~ :/

A month.

It will never work out huh? My bad for expecting way too much from you. ^^

Movie marathon later on! 5 movies. My oh my. Today will be great day! :D

And it got me thinking,

Again. 

Before you read, please take note that I'll be ranting throughout this whole post. I'm a little pissed / emotional / whatever, fyi. Don't bother being so terasa and think that I'm referring to you. Get a life, (: 

I find guys who let their pride get in their way, a total turn-off. You are an excellent example. Saying that you have nothing to say and hence you said all those nonsense? Wow. Nice excuse dude. What a jerk. ^^

And you. There will not be any peace because of homophobic people like you. Bisexual / Asexual / Homosexual, whatever their orientation is, they are still human. They still have human rights. No hate bro. Dislike judgemental people like you. Try being in their shoes and see how hard life is for them. Some of them. Being judged by people like you. 

Yes. Been there, done that. -.-

Oh, and after that day, after you laughed at me for pouring my heart out, for breaking down in front of you, for thinking that you might be a great friend. I became so scared to open up. Thanks bro. It helped a lot. I got a lot stronger by the way. (:

Now. You. Congratulations. I know you've moved on. Me too. But do you have to delete everything? I know this sounds ridiculous... Argh. Come on. :/

Ever did something and memories just BOOM, start to flood your brain like nobody's business? Why did I even do that?! I swear the flashbacks spoilt my mood. ): 

I'm sorry for hurting you. Thanks for being super honest that day. You may not intend to let me know but still... I guess I made things worse huh? I'm really really sorry. 

I feel so messed up. Words can't describe how I feel right now. :/