For the past 3 days, I've been working for triumph. 

Yes, triumph. The company that sells bra. 

I thought it would be fun to work for a company that sells undergarments. So it was the first thing on my bucket list. And............................................

I was wrong. 

It was the worst job I've ever taken. For 3 days, I stand at the outlet I was allocated to, with barely any customers. I stare at bras and rearrange them over and over again. Day 1 was okay, for I had 2 customers. Day 2? 5. Wonderful. Last day? NONE. I was so bored, I had to ask Nasuha, Aleen and Xavier to come down and look for me. 

Throughout that 3 days, I fear for my sanity. I kept myself occupied with rubber band tricks, a calculator and myself. I count to 9900 for hours and I tried imagining different scenarios. YES. I WAS THAT BORED.

And there was this super bitchy co-worker of mine. Lets not even talk about her. 

Thank god. I do not have to work there any more. :D 

Time to take on my next job! Phone operator! :B

I don't get it.
Let me show you my grades for O's.

English: A1
Combined Humanities (SS/Lit): B3
Mathematics: A2
Add. Mathematics: B3
Science (Chem/Bio): A1
Food and Nutrition: A1
Chinese: B3

Yea. Like I said, I did well, but could have done better for Maths and Humanities.
And because of such grades, I've been pressurised by a lot of people into get into a JC. School leaders, mentors, parents and even my own friends. Wait, isn't it my choice?
When asked, I would reply with a "Oh, I'm aiming for poly." Let's just say the response from these people are horrible. -.-
Especially from certain school leaders. I would not name who, but the response is seriously disappointing. There was this person in particular, who gave me a frown and had a super black face on when I chose poly over JC.
There are certain people who are supportive of my choice though, hence, thank you. (:
My whole point is that as leaders/mentors, aren't we suppose to show our support to the people under our lead unless it is a detrimental decision?
This is rather disappointing, coming from the school leaders, who immediately expressed how unhappy they are towards my choice and not giving a valid reason why.
I'm just disappointed in the leaders. Where is the support you are supposed to show?
Whatever it is, I've made my decision and submitted them. I am not really affected by any of your remarks.

Results.

I did well, but could have done better.

2012

Time flies huh? A blink of an eye and it's already 2013.
2012 has been a significant year for me.

Flag bearer for speech day, stepping down from cca and councillor board, taking my O's, prom night. So much more.
2012 is also the year I found out about my condition. It is also the year that my dog and closest aunt past away.
It is the year that shaped me into who I am now.
Typical line. But it's true.

When you feel like a mess but have no idea why. 

Wait. Perhaps you do. But it's due to numerous reasons.

Screw reality. 

Hey you,

I know it doesn't really matter to you. But I need to get this off my chest.
Remember that night when they asked you about it? And you didn't tell the truth? (Or that's what I think)
Right after your response, I felt as if a dagger stabbed my heart.
I know, the past isn't something you go around parading and announcing. But when you deny it, it felt like I am rather insignificant to you. It felt like I wasted your time. It felt like I shouldn't have been a part of your life.
I know what I did wasn't right. I know I hurt you really badly. I am really sorry about that.
I cherish those moments with you. I really do. And what you said then made me realised that I am perhaps just a waste of your time. I shouldn't have been a part of your life, my apologies. ^^
Just so you know, I would have admitted it and said it if I were you and/or if such a question was directed at me.

How intriguing.

I will be back on Thursday. Give me awhile. I'm busy with work.